"How can I make myself over on the inside?"
I have been making myself over from the outside. I have been taking care of my hair and my body making sure they are healthy and looking great. I have learned to controlled my eating habits and get into a decent hair care regimen. I have gotten into a great exercise routine and have a great set of products to keep my hair in check. All that is well and good but I was still a mess on the inside. I was resentful, angry, hurt and just had so much evil in me. I didn't trust a soul and to make matters worse I blamed everyone for my problems. I couldn't make my own decisions and i hated myself for struggling the way I was. I keep saying "was" like it was years ago! It was recently that I have felt this way. It was a constant!
"I hated this!"
"I hate myself"
"I'm fat and ugly"
"I'm unworthy of love!"
"I don't like that!"
"Oh my god why do I have so many bills?"
"Why cant I catch a break?"
"Why is my hair not growing?"
"Why didn't I get that promotion?"
"Why am I not losing weight fast enough?"
I decided to change the way I felt about myself. I was bringing negativity in my life by saying it and thinking it all the time. I decided to do some research and so a challenge. It was called "30 days of Self Love" and here is what is all about:
Welcome to the 30 Days of Self-Love!
Take a few moments to quietly reflect on confidence and recognize what you have to offer. You have something! Focus on that throughout the day. Whenever you feel down, remember who YOU are and what you have to be proud of. Don’t negate it!
What do you have to be confident about? Proclaim it...and don’t forget that affirmation!
((http://jes0918.blogspot.com/2010/09/30-days-of-self-love-confidence-and-10.html))
Take a few moments to quietly reflect on confidence and recognize what you have to offer. You have something! Focus on that throughout the day. Whenever you feel down, remember who YOU are and what you have to be proud of. Don’t negate it!
What do you have to be confident about? Proclaim it...and don’t forget that affirmation!
((http://jes0918.blogspot.com/2010/09/30-days-of-self-love-confidence-and-10.html))
Now I did this and it made me feel so good about myself. I used Positive Affirmations to get through these thirty days. Examples of such affirmations:
1) I love myself deeply and unconditionally.
2) I am beautiful, warm-hearted and intelligent.
3) I approve of myself and so does God.
4) I live in the present and my future is exceedingly bright.
5) Self-confidence is what I thrive on. Nothing is impossible and life is great.
6) My personality radiates with confidence—I am courageous, bold, and sociable.
7) I now command my subconscious mind to immediately replace all old negative self-talk and negative self-images with powerful new positive thoughts and new positive empowering self-images.
8) I attract the most positive people and I am always at the right place at the right time.
9)I not a quitter—I am unstoppable and persistent in everything I do.
2) I am beautiful, warm-hearted and intelligent.
3) I approve of myself and so does God.
4) I live in the present and my future is exceedingly bright.
5) Self-confidence is what I thrive on. Nothing is impossible and life is great.
6) My personality radiates with confidence—I am courageous, bold, and sociable.
7) I now command my subconscious mind to immediately replace all old negative self-talk and negative self-images with powerful new positive thoughts and new positive empowering self-images.
8) I attract the most positive people and I am always at the right place at the right time.
9)I not a quitter—I am unstoppable and persistent in everything I do.
I also listened to devotionals from a preacher named Joyce Meyers every single day!!! I became new and whole. I noticed the good things about me. I looked at myself in a whole different way! I even watched my words and thought I would share my knowledge from what I learned with everyone that I know! I even decided ( due to this surge of self love ) to explore the spiritual side of myself. I decided that I would let it all go ( my pain, hurt, destructive thoughts and words ). I let the LOVE in! I even look at the love from my hubby and child in a different way! I finally see the love from them as pure instead of it just being there! I even decided to go to church today and I felt the ice melt from my heart. I haven't been to church in awhile and when I went it didn't really sink in because I hated myself. I felt unworthy of any love (Let alone God's love!) and ashamed of myself because of it but when I did give into the love of myself, I felt the love of the Almighty! I have decided to make this 30 days turn into a lifetime thing! It changed my life and I have decided to make it my mission to spread the love and try and teach anyone who needs it (and those who think they don't) the power of SELF LOVE!!! It changes lives and I hope it changes yours! Try the 30 Days of Self-Love! Start Today and feel the joy That I DO!!Be Blessed,
Tori
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